i guess famous amos should say something about prom. stupid da =p has it hit u that prom signifies the end of lotsa things? or perhaps just one thing, 'lost' friendships. i.e. the people you'll almost never meet again barring outstanding circumstances. well, it hit me quite a number of times. the close frenz will always be close to ur heart (ttz why they're close) but those on the periphery will disappear. perhaps, once in awhile, appear as a blip on the radar but otherwise... gone. school gave me an excuse to see you, to hear you. you gave me a reason to come to school. now, there's no more reason or excuse. soon, tekong will be 'all'. all my time, all my energy... as well as all the other guys'. but as the famous chinese saying says (or rather one of the few i know), tian xia wu bu san zi yan xi. we can't help but feel sad when there's parting and we shouldn't feel otherwise, but we can't help it. thats what makes life so magical. how different paths cross and diverge at different parts for different lengths. may mine and yours cross one day again. and then, we'll feel happy, as we should.

3 months? wow... 1 month? ouch... studying? u better be... me? not realli...

'He had known that she would pass from his hands and eyes, but had thought she could live in his mind, not realising that the very fact that we have loved the dead increases their unreality, and that the more passionately we invoke them the further they recede.' A Passage to India

we never consider the afterlife, not till it confronts us face-on either in the form of others or ourselves. yet when we do, we tend to overconsider it and forget life itself.

random thoughts on love (first draft)

l-o-v-e
the word everyone tries to define
but never come close

better to have once loved
than never loved before?
but you'll never truly know will you
because you can't be both at the same time

love is what makes the world go round?
if it is, then wouldn't it spin
faster and faster when i see you?

but of cos, i'm mistaken
that's not love, that's lust
but isn't lust the physical form of love?

surely love is physical
as well as mental
and definitely spiritual
for it transcends everything

but what would i truly know about love
for love's a two-way thing isn't it?
so that would make unreciprocated love
a contradiction wouldn't it?

love is everything
yet nothing but a feeling
love encompasses many many things
yet is the simplest thing in the world

indeed, i seem to see the light
of what love is, not what it isn't
perhaps the reason i'm able to
is because i'm not in it

i don't claim to know all of it
for who truly can?
but i know what i need to know
to make me love... love

l-o-v-e
the word everyone can't define
because we're too close
way too close to it

wow... itz been how long? almost 2 months, which is gd. meaning almost nobody will still come here. haha. i realised the blogging world is still alive. and kicking. i'm delirious. dun ask why. it'll take too long. i love it how everything works out in the end. and before u slam me for saying tt, u just have to think of what end u have in mind. i just choose to see all the gd things as an end, and u all the bad. itz a choice whether u wanna wake up and smell the roses.

hmmm... u know that ur easy to bully when 9, 10 yr olds walk all over u. hmm... will have more comments bout the camp when itz all over.

lotsa thoughts to share and time to do it. so dun worry. i'll be ard for awhile... i hope.

it's not that i dun care... pls dun think so. if u wanna fault me... then fault me for caring too much. for trying to hard and failing... for thinking too much in things u think are as clear as black and white. but i do care... i realli do.

dun u just love 'a' names? adele... alexis... astrid... just beautiful names dun u think? i think so...

too few ppl know what life's truly about... it's like you get caught up in doing everything that you should do that you dun do what you want to do... and in the end, ttz wat truly matters. of cos an education, a gd job, money is impt. but is it that f-ing important that you forgo your happiness? sometimes, i think death doesn't happen often enough. if a special person in our life died every once in awhile, we would appreciate our lives more and know what exactly we wanna do and do it. dreams. dare to dream but more importantly, dare to try and fulfill that dream. ... i'm too pissed off to type anymore. sighz.