Monday, April 28

excruciating. i can't take it soon. i feel so tired, even though i sleep like a pig. pale as a chicken, lifeless like a dead fish. sighz. and i still dunno watz wrong. nobody does it seems. the doctors have tried everything, short of cutting my stomach up. think they might have to do tt soon. to everyone who reads this, please pray to watever God u might know. hopefully its the same one as mine.

Thursday, April 24

think i have stomach flu, ouch. stomach growls every 2 mins as if i did something wrong. stupid stomach. i got into the team! hooray! was so excited when renji called me and told me. hoped tt me being sick wouldn't affect my chances and apparently it din so hooray. yay... though i won't get to play much (if at all), being in means alot.

Monday, April 21

watched the SHE and power station (dong li huo che) concert on sat. it was great cos we were so close to the stage and the audience was so much better. helped tt SHE were so pretty (as usual) and power station realli rocked the house and sang beautiful. the team will be announced on wed. gd luck to everybody who's hoping to get in, which is everybody of cos (lol).


I will never try to break your heart. -Power Station

Friday, April 18

sick... nobody likes to be sick, except when it's on a sch day. lol. but it's not. sighz. hate getting angry at frenz for no reason. it just happens. soccer, church, studies... man, ttz alot. luckily i dun have an added 'girl' to distract me. not tt i dun want the distraction. but let's not talk bout tt again. somebody said my previous entry was depressing, or sounded so. realli? well, it wasn't meant to be. it was meant to be heartwarming and touching. guess i adapted it too much. lotsa ppl to vote for in student council. hope tt those who realli want it and deserve it, get it. some ppl just want it for the wrong reasons and yet, they still get it. but life's unfair. nobody said it wasn't.

I want to live bravely, and love without fear. -Jewel

Monday, April 14

dear fren (general and specific), i dun want to be the sun in your life, i would rather be the moon. that's because everyone wants to be the sun, but when the sun goes down, the moon's still around. even when the sun is up, so is the moon. he's just hidden and waiting for the appropiate time. let me be ur moon.
feel great today! went for training since... ages ago. feel so unfit but so fun running and running and running. not enough running though. feeling a ball again is like, getting married again. =) lol. like they say, ur ball's like ur wife. though i seriously doubt it. campaigning has started! gd luck yun, em, michelle, yingheng, anyone i know and like (mostly bout... everyone) who's running... been talking alot bout running today. heh. i'm blabbering now. think its prob the 1st time. something's wrong. lol.
[bran: yo bro! do u read this? heh... using this bracket thingy just for u. talk to ya when free man! and dun worry bout josh's bdae... i forgot bout it too. lol]

when you realise you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

Saturday, April 12

life is all bout phases. the music we listen to, the habits we get into, the qualities we look for. sometimes, it's bout maturing. at least tt's wat people think. but who deems wat is mature? only god prob can, and he didn't. but that's a sidetrack. what phase am i in now? the sick of internet phase (icq and blogging are kinda... meaningless), the alternative-rock phase (all english, hate chinese now, cept for... _._._) =P, and the love's realli a backseat... for now. but phases are phases... just waiting for the next spin of the wheel to see what i'll get. u never know, i never want to.

love isn't what you get, it's what you give.

Thursday, April 10

school's back... getting into the groove again. tmr will be my 1st training in like 3 weeks so hopefully i'll be able to get into the groove of tt too. maybe i'll get into the team, maybe i won't. i'll be satisfied no matter what. just love being with the guyz. a fun, friendly (can't use nice cos it's too overused) bunch. Work's tough, it always is. thanks em for the wonderful email and yeah, most of the time, if not all, love is followed with madness but that's wat makes love so unique? i wouldn't know... yet. haven't gone there. sooner or later... it doesn't matter.

There are three things that will last. Faith, hope and love. But out of these, love is the greatest of all.

Tuesday, April 8

just re-watched serendipity. thanks jo. sometimes in life, u lose tt purpose, tt driving force which makes u go on and on without having to think. i did. for the past few days, life was a hassle. even though i did "nothing" (productive-wise), i felt... like there was a burden on my shoulders. everything i did, from chatting with someone i've always wanted to chat with, to playing tennis, just felt wrong. a low point which i cannot explain. that's when u go back to what gives u meaning. for some, it's work, for others, nature. for me, love. and serendipity captured it all wonderfully (that's why it's my fav. film... doh). it represents everything that i feel and need at some point in life. love without regret, that particular soulmate which u can never forget, never let go.

she's out there, i just haven't found her yet.

Saturday, April 5

heard tt quite a few ppl have me as their link... meaning more ppl (i think) are gonna read this... blabber. so i should blabber more often. :) my interview's on wed. am i worried? not yet. should i? prob... cos i dun have great recommendations nor great results. only thing tt can prob save me is my oratorical skills... my saving grace.

confusion's only a state of mind u allow urself into. if u try hard enough, u won't get there.

Friday, April 4

been bout 3 days since i've updated. life's been pretty normal since then. play and sleep. no work. been awhile since i've been doing this. hope i'll be able to adjust back to work cos i'll be screwed otherwise. gotta start doing some work b4 tt though. some things in life, u dun wanna do, u noe u have to, and yet u resist. itz an endless struggle.