Friday, December 30

i need to get david tao's katrina... i must force myself to go learn david tao, john mayer, jason mraz once i ord or something. basically have the time to improve on my guitar-ing.
watched mr and mrs smith in camp recently. realise that i kinda like the show because they have such good chemistry. both jolie and pitt and the characters themselves. i think the first part was quite well scripted and the latter part was kinda disappointing. it was fun watching it with a bunch of guyz cos of stunning angelina jolie (she's not chio, but oh-so hot!), but it would have been so nice to watch it with someone else. if you know what i mean. (actually, you prob don't and i dun intend on telling you. lol.)
going to thailand next tues night. kinda looking forward to it cos itz like the last thing left in ocs. to some extent, wanna enjoy it with my platoon/wing mates cos we'll be going our separate ways rather soon. recently, i've been realising what people mean when they say that they miss being a trainee because of the bonding and all. i have this weird relationship with my buddy. sometimes, i think he doesn't realli like me but i think itz just him being moody and then at times, we're ok again. hmm... oh well. i'm quite thankful to have him as a buddy.
will blog again later cos i got quite a few things to say.

Sunday, December 11

i know all illnesses suck but i especially hate stomach nonsense. i've had diarrhoea for 3 days now meaning i had a horrible weekend, and even though the diarrhoea's better, my stomach aches like mad, kinda like cramps. and this morning, both my sisters came down with what i think is food poisoning... vomitting, possible fever. sighz. i hate stomach problems.

Saturday, December 10

u guys can do no wrong, and even if u did, i'd love you no less for it.
hey girl... dunno if u read this, but i love you and i'm sorry for wat i ever did.


been watching tons of one tree hill recently. i forgot why i loved tv shows so much. itz cos sometimes, they're a realli gd reflection of life. as much as people try to deny it, lots of tv shows actually try and portray reality. but cos of cynicism and perhaps self-denial, we dun see it. like literature, movies, songs... (k... songs not realli at times). thats why i'm thankful for the phases where i like books, or poetry, or serials. k... i like them all the time; just that i have phases where i enjoy them more.


this next part only applies to those who know something bout one tree hill. i know lots of people think that itz realli just a beverlyhills90210 and it tries to hard to be 'arty'. kinda like lucas in the show (played by chad michael murray) who tries to be good and all but screws it up from time to time. and after awhile, it gets kinda repetitive. but isn't that kinda like real life? we all try realli hard to be the person we wanna be and the person we think we are, but sometimes, we screw up. we care bout tons of people, but we're not always sure who we love. sometimes, we lie... to protect ourselves, to protect others. is honesty the best policy?


Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue

Sunday, November 6

this is me. (at least i think so... at times)

i am the boy who am doing this because two of my closest frenz did it, inspiring me cos i think this is a great way of self-discovery (to articulate out the things you always thought but never said out loud).

i am the boy who either doesn't say enough because he thinks too carefully about what he should say or talks too much because he gets carried away and hasn't thought through what he wants to say.

i am the boy who loves his frenz, and hates himself for not having enough time for every single one of them.

i am the boy who has a special place in his heart for every fren, and there's a 4+ year old hole in this heart that can't be replaced.

i am the boy who's learning to be a man, and finds that it's no easy journey.

i am the boy who's a hopeless romantic (serendipity is my fav movie... ttz how hopeless), yet has never been truly attached (maybe itz cos of how hopeless i am, that things have to be as surreal as in the movies)

i am the boy who's a christian, and isn't afraid of saying so. (what does that mean? i guess it means i love my god.)

i am the boy who wishes he were taller, but knows that everything else about him more than compensates for his lack of height.

i am the boy who feels so blessed just be alive, because he's 'seen', 'heard', 'felt' death in so many ways, from so many people that he knows the true joy of just being alive.

i am the boy who wants to listen to everything you say, if you would tell him.

i am the boy who has lots of things to say, if you want to listen.

i am the boy who just wants a girl to love him, as much as he'll love her.

i am the boy right here waiting, waiting for the right moment, waiting for the right person.

i am just another boy, yet a special boy.

Sunday, October 2

i dunno if anyone will read this. anyway, my blog's realli 99% dead alreadi because i have my journal in camp to write everything down. the purpose of my blog was never to publicise my life or watsoever; it was just meant for me to write what i was too lazy to pen down in a journal.
i have a lot of things to say to various people and all, but i'm still unsure if i wanna do it here. i'll leave it as this for now... undecided.

Friday, January 7

the good thing about sporadic updating is that almost no one reads ur blog. (at least i hope) so it becomes what it was meant to be in the first place (at least for me), a place to express ur deepest thoughts.

anyway, i feel like such an ass now after reading pplz blogs cos it reminds me of the many frenz that i've either lost contact of or drifted slightly away from. now i understand what **** was feeling when he was leaving and he started to think of all the frenz that he unwittingly (or God forbid, knowingly) pushed aside. i feel just like him. except that, i'm not going anywhere. unless pulau tekong counts. i could start blabbering bout how life's lidat and how itz not realli my fault. but i guess, all i wanna say is, if you are my fren, and i've been a horrible one so far, please forgive me. i'll try to be a better one now.

k... maybe ppl shud read this now. so... i'll update more? depends.