decided to post another thought... was actually considering making a better website but then i remembered, wat was my purpose for having this? not to tell the world things and to communicate with them. but for an avenue for those things i never say enough to come out. so abandon tt thought... never tell me if u read my blog cos itz between u and well, kinda me. if we wanna talk bout anything, we will. trust me.
love. it doesn't have to be boy-girl. it can be so strong it hurts. today, the love for rugby drove ppl to tears. i can't say tt i feel wat certain ppl felt cos i've never played and lost such an important match. but i have, been in the team, done nothing in an important match we lost. the feeling of uselessness is overwhelming. trust me. i've felt it more than once. but u pick urself up, eventually. and u grow. to avoid tt same feeling again. the cycle might repeat but one day, u'll have grown... enough.

2 whole weeks... realli sorry to all those ppl who actually read this. lol. is there anyone out there? i have no tagboard so u have to hope i read ur blog or something. life.. is it better carefree or worrying bout every nitty gritty detail? wat our the priorities? fun? work? love? sighz... phases... we all enter different phases in life and subphases... i hate my current subphase. prob one day, hopefully tmr i can articulate my thoughts better and actually say something which makes sense.
nite.

sporadic updating nowadays, sorry to whoever reads this. girls... u can't run from them but u can't keep up with them. there's always eye candy around which is nice to see but impossible to get. u know wat i mean if ur a guy. but well, when ur trying to not think bout girls, u always seem to look at the eye candy a lil too much, cos u have nothing to get ur mind off. today and yest were fruitless but fun. how most of my days are actually so. yeah. realised tt any stranger who reads my blog and doesn't realli know me will think tt i'm damn slack and lotsa things. who cares? lol.

had a nice chat today with a fren of many years. hopefully, we'll have more of those nice chats. napfa's coming up and i have to do a certain number of chinups which i can't do now. hmm... gotta train. we drew against meridien. disappointing but well... sighz. i vowed to myself tt i would train my fitness and speed and ball skills for next year. i hope i can live up to it. itz only a year.

Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.

it's been awhile, quite a long while i know. well, my stomach's finally settled. just a little sore nowadays but it'll be fine (it better be). lotsa things to say so i'll try to make it quick. while i was sick and hurting badly for bout 4 days (the nites were worse), i got to appreciate my parents. they were always there for me to say the least and i feel ashamed of myself at times for behaving the way i do. not tt this is gonna make me drastically change overnite, but i'll try. soccer com is underway and we've had 2 respectable results against vj and sa. 0-0 which was kinda lucky and 1-1 which could've gone either way respectively. i'm not getting to play but i'm not arguing cos being with the team and gaining experience is more than i can bargain for. thanks guyz. it'll only prepare me for next year.
went to mezza9 at hyatt to eat yesterday nite. the food wasn't superb but the ambience sure was. gonna bring tt special someone there... someday.